11 Days

I can't wait to be back in my city! I miss NYC so much it's really unexplainable. My nights of random moments with my close girlfriends, my mothers cooking, talks with my older cousin, the transferring of trains, my hair salon in Washington Heights, my favorite Thai spot in the LES, the sound of bachata blaring from someone's car, the people watching at Union Sq...

You truly learn to appreciate something precious when it has been removed from your life for a while... I'm glad I was away for six months. Perspective is key in life.

Real love...

This song makes me feel the same way Unthinkable by Akeys still makes me feel.

I look forward to being in love, real, passionate, supportive love. The kind that you know will get you through any day, the kind that wakes you up with a smile on your face and gives you this sense of hope for the future.

If you have that love with someone, cherish and cultivate it...

Misconceptions

I understand that through my facebook pictures I may look like one of those females who's only occupation is to throw on some heels and shake my rump, but it is not. Here are some facts about me since it seems there are some misconceptions out there...

1. Yes I do go out, but not as much as people think I do. It is all an illusion. I actually have a career that takes up a lot of my time, mental included. So although my profile picture may scream dancing socialite in reality I am a non-makeup, glasses on the face flats on the feet wearing woman.

2. Yes I date. I happen to attract all sorts of men. But no I don't sleep around. In fact I am the least likely to sleep around. I know, I know-- I have a dirty mouth and say all sorts of inappropriate things to my girls but when it comes down to it I don't have the lack of morals and emotional detachment that most men have to enjoy a couple of random nights with random tall black handsome built like a model strangers. And no, I am not saying I am a saint but what I am saying is exactly what I wrote above.

3. Yes I encourage dating, it helps a person get to know themselves. But I am a bigger fan of monogamous relationships, and so I encourage that as well.

4. Yes I do enjoy a free drink, but no I don't need anyone to buy me one. The first thing I do when I walk into a party is buy my own drink, and if I'm with friends I offer them one as well, and that's fine. I am not the gold digger type nor will I ever be. If you buy me a drink I'll probably end up buying you one as well. I'm not the girl who hangs by a table hoping for a free cup of something, I work hard so I can play hard.

At the end of the day, I don't pretend to be someone I am not. I am not the most connected nor am I the hottest commodity. I don't lead a lifestyle outside my salary bracket. I enjoy sexual gratification as much as the next person but I have wonderful will power and would rather wait for an exclusive partner. And although I do enjoy my life 95% of the time and can say that it is a sweet one, don't read so much into the pictures people... they're only 5% of my story.

I mean what I say, and I say what I mean.

YM

Remember!

For every person who doesn't want you, there are 10 who think you are more than fabulous.

Know your worth... walk tall with grace.

I laugh

At the men I've met over the past 11 years who mistake my humor and flirting (if that) for being naive... I know the game. I wrote a whole chapter about it.

Carry on.

Can't change

You can't change situations that already happened.

You can't change feelings that were hurt.

You can't change people and their behaviors.

But...

You can change how you view and handle life.

Change what doesn't work for YOU and keep what does.

evolving.

How much is that gold fish?

Everyone around me is either getting engaged or having a baby. Mainly having a baby. If you're having a baby congrats.

I could barely commit to a diet, imagine a child.

hmmm...

Maybe I'll get a gold fish.