::Where the Wild Things Are::

I've been having these instances filled with anxious thoughts of what 2010 will bring, sometimes they are purely fire balls of excitement and at others they are 3000 thoughts at once about "what ifs"--- what if I don't get a masters, what if I never write something amazing, what if something happens and I'm miserable... what...if.... I stop worrying? then I might have to actually relax... ((sits back and ponders))

I need to relax (como dice Sasha)... I sound like I have a mix of ADD and Schizophrenia don't I? but shouldn't I be "hungry" for more... if I'm not, wouldn't that defeat the purpose of my mothers struggles? not to mention my own? (enter clip of me getting bullied in 5th grade)......... entonces? hmm.

Ladies and Gents... I have never basked so much in the glory that is Hispanic Heritage Month. I went to an event hosted at the Time Warner center by HBO Latino last night and I saw the screening of "Celebrity Habla"-- dope. I laughed a lot, and almost teared (that's me being a softy again). It was great because it reminded me that MOST of the Latinos that are famous now were once struggling to find themselves, as well as wondering how the hell to make some sort of impact on our community. It reminded me how hard some of us try to assimilate when we come here as immigrants, to blend in (I actually wrote a poem about this in 12th grade, except I was stating that blending in is not for me). It reminded me that just because we're not in the times when the Brown Berets and the Young Lords were around does NOT mean that the Latino struggle is dead, or that we are chilling at home not trying to move forward as a people. Our identity as Latinos in America is (I feel) the struggle of my generation... but maybe this is a subject with too much substance... Ideally I would love to be in a coffee shop (how American of me) with a group of mi gente (there we go Latina all the way) discussing these things, coming up with ways of how we could make changes. --- BTW that's why I love my sorority, these women do all of this every day as social workers, educators, lawyers... etc etc.

I got to see Rita Moreno! casi se me sale la baba... O.M.G.... I was able to meet people from the film industry (thanks Rachel & Mike aka Juan for pulling me in, I can get shy ::gasp::).................. INSPIRATIONAL night indeed.

On other news.......... I got to see Where the Wild Things Are ... First of all, that little boy Max would have gotten his culito waxed if he would have done that to my gramma... pero! for the purpose of the movie it worked... I identified with him! at times he felt alone, confused, scared, happy, wild! Maybe it is all a part of growing up (and here I thought puberty was long gone)... it was nice. Because just like little Max eventually I'll find my way to where it is that I belong (SO GO SEEEEEEEEE IT!) Plus it didnt hurt that the person who I joined made the night effortless and relaxing (aja! lo hice!)... so thank you.

I'm challenging myself to step out of my comfort zone and take risks (the theme from last year returns!) don't get comfortable that = boredom and death to POSSIBILITIES... Lets see where this goes....................................

In High Spirits...

::FanStar::