A cloud of sadness decided to park on my families drive way. I'm not great at dealing with such things. I deal with it in two ways. One is keeping busy, and two is by spending time with myself. This moment of truth, caught us off guard. I'm not understanding why it is that its happening, I'm not comprehending much if anything at all. Interestingly enough, I found comfort in a stranger. I suppose sometimes it is easier to be vulnerable with someone you don't know...I suppose.
I'm afraid I'm coming off selfish to my family, and it is not that I'm not feeling the pain as they are. It's just that I will/am approaching this cloud much differently. As they all sit inside the living room, occasionally looking outside the window checking to see if it decided to go away, I put on my rain coat and boots-- hold on to my toughest umbrella and step outside our door.
This doesn't mean that I am not accepting the circumstance that we find ourselves in... or that I am unfazed. But I trust in the one above, and if this is part of his plan I will not fight it. Embrace. Unravel. Understand.
All these things I'm doing while crossing this bridge.
MsUnderstood...
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