work it out...

So I went to the gym and since I have no ipod (shout out to whoever stole my ipod, I hope that sht freezes and can't be fixed...yes I miss my baby)... they were giving VH1 Best Hip-hop songs of all time... and guess who was number 43? my wedding song... Just had to share.
If I can find a guy that's down with this I'm set.

Okay so I had this random convo with one of my guy friends about titles and relationships, and hes like that titles are not needed and that females just want it for security "women and their damn security"--- well I'm sorry! you want all the perks and not the commitment. I swear this is why women either go psycho or lesbian. Commitment is no longer sacred. Ugh.

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I'm a lover not a fighter...

Sex is overrated and underrated
Over the sheets or under the sheets
Sex can be good or it can be bad
Good all the time or bad just that once

Sex is exciting and nerve wrecking
Can it lead to a steady something...
or will the something lead to nothing...
Words...Words...Words... Spilling...Splashing...Clashing

Desire...want...need...intense...instinct
TOUCH
on-going...eventful...spontaneous...shaky...in sync
TOUCH
meaningful...powerful...crazy...passionate...
TOUCH
anxious...unaware...incredible
TOUCH
blissful...tease...bite...unforgettable
touch...touch...touch...
exhale... inhale...
TOUCH

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*If a man can learn to appreciate a woman as he does good sex, things would be different*

Crazy child...

Going to the gym put me in the most amazing mood... there is nothing like some good cardio to get you in the right state of mind...

So I watched 13 going on 30 (chick flick alert) and it made me feel super mushy... specially the soundtrack... wouldn't it be dope if fairy tales really happened? haha a girl can dream of prince charming right? Two of my favorite songs though in the whole movie:

Billy Joe- Vienna... Oh man this just made me think to myself, Gosh I really need to stop stressing and just let my life unravel on its own. Something will happen, sooner or later.
"Dream on... but don't imagine they'll all come true"

Liz Phair- Why Can't I?... makes me think of when I was 14 and I had my first kiss in DR in front of my tias house... It was only a tap but I ran inside the house and slid down the door onto the floor perplexed and almost hyperventilating from being so excited that a guy had kissed me... yea, I'm still a dork trust me.

And since I'm sharing songs... I'm all about Rachel Yamagata right now:
Sidedish friend- I think girls are catching on to what guys have been mastering since the stone age (I'm pretty sure of this)
Be Be your love- low tones, mellow song... almost depressing but that simple piano in the back is just breath taking... and I love it when something simple takes my breath away.

Lil Wayne- comfortable... all women need to learn this... but always throw caution to the wind.

Okay! back to writing my screenplay... Look @ me becoming a starving artist...

Spooning? me?! where do I sign up.

Great break! no seriously it was dope. I got to see my family, groom myself (yey I look attractive once again), see my super cool ass sisters (cooler than a pack of gummy bears) and I got to hookah while listening to some Spanish music... does it get any better!? well well well, here we go. Nada es facil.

So today I had to head back to school and what a trip, after getting my laptop from Queens ( I was in the bx... I should just move there) and waiting for mami to come home (I had to say bye) I walk outside with my umbrella (the one that was not looking too good) and yup! you guessed it, it didn't make it past the corner (my building is on the corner)... Great! cold icy rain, nothing puts me in a better mood... fk it.

I missed the train by 2 minutes! usually this number makes me happy, because c'mon two times is always better... or three or four, who's counting? any who, I didn't want to get all grouchy about it so I decide to get some hot choco-(yey) from Starbucks... right when I sit down, take out my book... yes, yes. The whole thing falls over, all OVER. whip cream and all... Oh the joy. I screamed Fk my life like 10 times... the Starbucks dude told me not to fuk my life and that it was ok ( i got a free choco)...

Okay I finally got to my dorm! IT IS FREEZING IN THIS HOUSE. I turned on the heater to 80 degrees, and nada... this means I'll be in sweats (2) and a hoody (2) lol... why must this be my life? (yes I'm venting waa waa)

Okay random sht:
The book I'm reading, chick lit my bff said Id love (I love you daze but I don't really like it) Chasing Harry Winston, its like a novela too fluffy Idk but as much as I dislike it I can't put it down, is like a guilty pleasure... GREAT! someone pass me a Peoples history of the United States, FAST. Its cool, I'm going with the chick theme... I was coaxed into watching How to lose a guy in 10 days & The sisterhood of the traveling pants 2... I guess I went wild.


I'm having issues with how honest I can be about my feelings, I think one of my new years resolutions will be to be less open and more nonchalant... mysterious? ... hmmm.

Okay 2 more weeks and then NYC all the way... yey.

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p.s. I played out Usher Trading places & The Dey- Taken (I know I'm random)

anyone have tylenol....

Okay headache thank you for joining me on this lovely Saturday...

So I hopped on the bus on Friday from DC and when I arrived at NYC the kid next to me was drooling, like a puddle of water was on his jacket. I didn't know if I should have laughed or pushed him away, so I just offered him some gum.

I went home before anything ( you know to change and what not) and as I looked for my twins book in my closet I found my old photo album and with it many pictures of my past (ahem) and I went through memory lane... Oh the guys that have broken my heart and those hearts that I broke... good times... good times.

So I hopped on the train and headed uptown to the boogie! haha and met up with sisters... my sisters are crazy. I don't even want to get into details, but trust me... ninjas are crazy.

I went to a hooka bar! okay okay seriously? I suck at that (no pun intended). It was fun though, cant front. But after a couple of glasses of grey goose, and my attempt at keeping my mouth shut... I passed out and woke up with a headache... and all I remember is that my wrist hurt and I kept thinking the word for it was ankle... I think this college thing is fkin my vocabulary up...

So that brings me to now... laying in my sis bed and my head pounding... but wondering... what will I get into tonight?

Happiness is what you make of it, right?

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You can't choose your fam...

(Listening to Marc Anthony- estoy enamorado... I'm not the dj)

So I came to VA and although I wasn't thrilled about the actual trip (as in I actually looked like I had fume coming out of my ears as I packed and my mom smiled to herself for her victory) I'm actually glad I came... I know I know what a holiday movie.

I haven't seen my cousins in a while, and it was dope as hell to just hang out with them and catch up on new things (i.e. jobs, school, local bizz and of course boys... I come from a family of women... except for like my one 17 year old cousin/lil bro, who btw we already warned about bringing some crappy girl to meet us... ahy mama) so yea... this was the trip

"Fanny! adonde e que vamo? e aqui?"--- my oldest aunt driving me crazy at port authority trynna figure out where the hell the bus departed from...

"Yo so listen to this song, is old school Run dmc"--- my cus manny trying to keep me entertained on the 5 hr bus ride (i dont have a damn ipod)...

"Ok I'll dye your hair.. but can i do what I want??"--- my cus karyl after she started mixing sht in the bathroom... its def different haha

"Mirenme!!"--- mami dancing reggea on the floor... I told her if I ever get married, shes not invited I'll be getting an actress to cover for her...

"Pero coge suing ada!"...."WOOHOOO"--- my aunt and the rest of them screaming for mami as she played boxing on nintendo Wii...

So to say the least it has been quite the time... too many jokes, and a lot of me wanting to pull my hair out... but I guess you have to make the best of it. Even if I could change the family I'm part of, I wouldn't... not even for one second.

Briefly...

Fun weekend... being with sisters def leaves you with many memories... ahh the undergrad life is almost over, just as this year is about to say adios... another one to add to the books. 2008 was a good year to me! haha... I sound like a sap.

So I'm stuck on this new Kanye West record... He may be cocky, but he sure has a reason for it.

Okay way too tired to write the usual stories I write... So I'll leave it at that.

*Super excited I get to be in NYC this whole week & I get to see my cuz'ns in VA...is funny as I get older the less I actually care about the holiday season and the more I'm concerned with spending it with the people that matter the most to me... and those who feel that I matter the most to them*

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