As fate will have it...

I am moving back to NYC. Not because I couldn't make it out here in LA but because my career demands it...

How do I feel? Bittersweet to be exact.

I love NYC, no matter how much shit people may talk about my city, I will always love it. And I mean that deep, crazy, butterflies in your stomach, excited about it love. True never ending, non-judgemental love. I have a multitude of open arms at home waiting to give me that love that I hold very closely to my heart.

LA? Well, LA is like the guy you don't really want to date at first and end up catching feelings for. I've enjoyed my growing relationship with my sorors out here and my wonderful roommate. I've enjoyed being home 85% of the time and spending time with myself, figuring myself out in this new stage of my life. I've enjoyed my diverse co-workers who have embraced my crazy dry sarcastic humor... I've enjoyed the few dates I've had with some sweet men. The one's who managed to get through my "mean" demeanor made my time out here that much more memorable.

But, as fate will have it, as she always has it, I will be where I'm meant to be. And this time around is back to NY. I'm excited to return to my most faithful and lasting relationship (aside from the one I have with God), and that's the one I have with my city.

Cheers to what lays ahead...

Sigh

Just when the world started to seem more stable,

I find myself in the middle of an earthquake.

I keep repeating to myself...

Life only throws you what the universe knows you can handle

Stages

When we're in our teens we go through a height spur... I find myself in a mental and emotional one.

I just...

In romance, I take my risks. The worse that could happen is that

I have another lesson to add to my book.

Besides, someone out there is looking forward to someday

having me in their life...

Leaping.

A shift in the stars...

I've reached 25...

And I have so much to be grateful for...

I have my health, a flourishing career, an unbreakable support system and the guidance from God...

With age comes wisdom, even though I've always thought myself wiser than most people in my age bracket, but regardless these years have taught me plenty. Experience is the best teacher after all...

I've learned that you have to make moves for yourself, because sitting around and wishing for it wont make it come true. Be proactive about your happiness is my motto.

I've learned that real friendships will survive anything, even when you feel you've come to an end- a new leaf is turned.

I've learned that family is not just blood but it is also about a spiritual connection with others... those who truly understand me, and do not judge me. Those who question my logic and push me to better myself, those who give me a reality check when I'm out of line and who pick up my call no matter the time when I'm ready to cry. To those, I say thank you.

I've learned that in romance risks are meant to be taken. All the men I've been romantically involved with have taught me a lot. The emotional availability and understanding that I have come from those relationships... From the older men to the younger ones I've dated... the straight up assholes to the overwhelmingly loving... the fathers, the artists, the athletes...

A lesson from each has come to me. And for that I'm thankful, because the man who ends up being my partner will have an amazing devoted and pure love as his companion.

I've learned that I am now not just a woman learning to navigate through life as I inch closer on the bridge God is helping me build, but that I am also a woman who can impact other women who need a mentor and a voice to tell them that all is possible as long as you believe in your capabilities in this world. Believe in the power of YOU.

My girl Jmo asked me what I wished for this 25th year... I said growth and love. Growth in all aspects of my life. And love from family, friends, God and self... love from a man would be wonderful, but only when life feels I'm ready for it.

On this 25th year of life, I want to acknowledge and thank all those who have given me the unconditional love, positive energy and support. I would not be the woman I am today if it weren't for you.

It takes a village to raise a child...

Happy 25th to Me

End one chapter...

Sometimes you have to let go and let the universe catch you.

For men: How to not fk up...

Here are a list of things that men should NOT do if they want to keep a woman who is amazing...

• Don't act like your time is more important than hers, everyone has sht to do
• Don't do one thing at the start of a relationship and get lazy 3 months into it, if that is not you from the start then don't do it
• Don't get salty when something doesn't go your way and try to be indifferent, it comes off as you being an idiot and frankly it will backfire 9 out of 10 times
• Don't fk up multiple times (and you know how you fk up) and then when she ends things you want to hit her off with a text on how you miss her or if she misses you, a text is the bare minimum and therefor makes you a lazy mofo. Put in work if you want her.
• Don't ignore a text/call for days and then act like you didn't, again you look like an ahole
• If she communicates to you something that bothers her or that affects the relationship, acknowledge it and work on it, if you don't it makes you look like a man who does not listen nor cares
• Look up, memorize, remember and practice: RECIPROCATION

Just my 2 cents for the days as men who are making simple minded ahole mistakes seem to be a recurring theme this week.

XO

FanStar

ps- this only applies to men who have already established a relationship with the female, if she has never given you the time of day then find another one...