As I rode the train...

New York city is like a playground... is the biggest backyard anyone could ask for. Instead of the sandbox you got central park, instead of the monkey bars you can just monkey around haha... anywho, I feel I get my best thoughts when I'm riding the train and listening to music from my head phones. All of a sudden I turn into some type of anthropologist and I begin to observe all those who ride the train, the strange things they do and the crazy things they say... but then I get caught up in my own day dreams and self critical thoughts. So before I go nuts I'd rather write them down.
I'm on this quest for happiness right? (as you should be too) and at times I feel that by letting certain people get to you, you start to almost believe that what they are saying is true...making you feel guilty, without any true logic. In other words whoever said sticks and stones will break my bones but words will never hurt me, was a moron. I'm sorry words are like knifes that if used properly can surely cut through the skin and cause some major damage to the soul...and some people are so good at that. So this weekend as I battled with my own thoughts and emotions I decided to teach myself a way to not let others words have such an impact in what I feel or act. See my friends, some people are just miserable and they wish to bring you down with them... the question is will you be like the captain in titanic and go down with the ship? or will you put on a life saver and hope for a better tomorrow? I dont know about you, but I am most definitely looking forward to the sunshine, rain, or snow that God decides to give me.

So this is what I came to realize tonight, that instead of rationalizing and trying to convince yourself that whatever you feel or think is in fact true...maybe, just maybe, if your heart is telling you that it is CORRECT... then stop killing yourself over feeling that way. Stop saying sorry for the things that you haven't done, stop feeling guilty for the actions you have not committed... start being okay with your choices, because they are a reflection of you and what you desire and they should make you happy...

Like this book my wonderful friend P. got me, it says that sometimes we have to have faith that whatever life throws at us we will be able to handle... and sometimes even if the experience is horrible or frighting we should have faith that we can move past it. Out of all bad comes good... your mission is to find it. Grasp on to it, and teach it to someone else.

Song of the weekend "merry happy" by kate nash (thanx to Dani and Jmo for putting me on)

xoxo
MisUnderstood