back in da days when I was young I'm not a kid anymore...

If you weren't outside last night, you missed out on some beautiful scenery. It was absolutely breath taking. NYC looked like it was getting painted on by some angels... cheesy but its the truth. I wanted to just stand there and look around... so I did. Right on the corner of 6 av, york street, ave of the Americas and canal street...

As the snow fell on my face, I started to think about two things that I had heard & read recently.

The first was from the movie The family that Prays,

"You cant make yourself happy by bringing misery to other people"

The second from some magazine,

"People often forget what you tell them, but they will never forget how you made them feel"

Negative people are every where, just waiting to be given the chance to kill someones dream. To bring them down, in the hopes I suppose that they will feel better about themselves and their short comings. My suggestion is to really excommunicate yourself from someone like this and work on yourself. Misery loves company, but never is there happiness in it.

How you feel is what matters. I mentioned in a previous blog that words carry so much weight (to me) and that many take that for granted. But what is more important is how you make someone FEEL. Your character, your actions, your body language, the way you TREAT someone. Mi gente, be conscious of this... I have allowed myself to give certain people a free pass... meaning, every time they say something hurtful or unnecessary I brush it off with, "oh thats just (insert name), thats how they are". Well, I'm sorry person who is careless and expects that such behavior is acceptable. As a female who is CONSCIOUS of her self worth, individuals like that no longer need to be a part of my journey... And in the same manner, I hope that those people that I've come across will think of me as a decent person, because I made them feel comfortable/happy/intellectually touched... etc.

I am such a busy body. Mami says that I have to be related to the energizer bunny, porque no paro en la casa... I shrug my shoulders. Con mami no se gana, if I'm home she tells me go squeeze the life out of your 20's, if I'm out she wants me home... the vicious cycle I tell you.

So I went to a random arcade downtown, UNEXPECTED!, I absolutely love surprises (just don't tell me its a surprise bc I'll ask like 100 times) and it was dope. I got my fanny kicked at the ultimate street fighter/xmen machine... like 5 times. I lost all my coins lol. Listen I was the child that pressed all the buttons hoping a kick would turn into a shazam! then there was Jr Pac Man... yes, you guessed it! I got eaten by the little ghost looking guys ... there goes another dollar. I did however win the car race, go figure I dont even have a permit (shame shame). My point is. Call up that girl/guy you've been dying to hang out with and do something out of character/random and fun. Just because we are adults it doesn't mean you cant let loose... ah life. Thanx poet.

Entonces, I went to a Mason program about MLK & other civil rights leaders. Dope. They spoke very well, and were welcoming. My third suggestion of the day, if you are curious about something ask someone who knows. Stop the generalizations, the misconceptions, the made up ideas. It's getting old, mi gente...very old.

On a last thought, Mr. Barack Obama. Guepa. Congrats on finally coming into office. Last night as I heard the speech about MLK I thought, I wish I would have been there to hear him address all those people. And then mj told me, well you heard Obama address our people. Let us have faith in this man.

....But some days I sit and wish I was a kid again.

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