Life is too short to remain unnoticed...

So I took yet another risk, a risk that I didn't think I could go through with. All day at work I wondered how on earth I would pull something of such magnitude off, how could I put aside my pride and totally humiliate myself with just a 50 50 chance of winning. And after praying and throwing all inhibitions out of the window, I actually won. I always thought that things like these were fabricated by entertainment companies to lure people in... but that once you read the bottom line it was all lies. But here I am, sitting in my desk at work, and totally amazed I am trying to take it all in.

Yesterday, as I took the train to my destination, I saw a girl wearing a shirt that read " I love Cali," it was then that I knew I was meant to go there... like the alchemist says, it has already been written. And after I won, went to dinner and celebrated with my friend (shout out to GG for giving me some much needed moral support), I went home to tell my screaming Dominican mother (love you) that her daughter (the coolest one around) had gone on MTV Tres, Mi TRL, made a complete ass of herself in the streets of NYC as a street paddler/entertainer made 51 dollars in 45 minutes, and won (against an equal opponent who is cooler than ice) a trip to Hollywood, to the VMA's.

(------------------go ahead take that in bc I still think I'm dreaming-------)

Yes, my crazy stupid jokes/ out going personality paid off, I am going to Cali... astonishing... incredible... and I thank God and the powers that be.

As I sat in my bed and flipped through the channels unable to fully focus on anything, and wondering if I would be able to ever sleep. I came across one of my favorite movies, a movie that I truly believe in :

Serendipity:
1.an aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident.
2.good fortune; luck

I don't know if I'm truly lucky or if I'm good at praying, or if Karma is coming back with something good for me... but I believe that when things are written for you, there is no one that can deviate you from that... it is what it is.

To top it off, when I crossed my street this morning, the noise of a buses engine snapped be back into reality and the bus had a huge side advertisement, of what? The VMA's. lol

Live. Love. Laugh.

(learn to make an ass of yourself, it makes for a great story)

p.s. I'm not angry at men, I just like to be blunt from time to time... just like all else that has happened and will happen to me, I'll meet the right person at the right time, when I'm ready for it.

Los Que Menos Corren, Vuelan

Oh men. Oh women. Lately I can't stop myself from over hearing women's conversations everywhere I go. On the Bx13 heading to my girls house, walking to soho from work, in the colmado buying my whole wheat toast with egg whites. And all of them are discussing, bitching, arguing, venting, or bragging about a guy. I wonder if men spend half as much time as us women do discussing, analyzing, breaking and building back up the stories and issues of our many important and none important relationships. All I ever hear out of men's mouth is about the latest layup so & so did at the game, about ESPN and how that game should have gone differently, how they bought some new hot "kix", about la comida que su mami hace... POINTLESS SHT. And I almost envy those conversations. Why are we so inclined to speak about men. Are they really that needed? ha-ha... don't take offense. I'm just venting. Guys half ass it while girls (the good ones, the ones that care) put in work, to ultimately end up disappointed. And let me tell you, trying not to have expectations never works, because in the end, we always have them... they hide and we think they aren't there, but they are. BAM! there.

And then can I just vent about the men que nada mas quieren una noche de nalga. Not to sound vulgar, but that is the truth. Straight up push up on you and turn into pervs trying to cop a feel, after you have clearly said NO in Spanish and English... he who wants to hang out and then you get the hunch he wants more than just to cuddle. Fk that. Some of us Latinas (the good ones, the ones that read and know about the world beyond the end of our block) are smart enough to know better. How dare you. Has this world come to its low? No decency left. And then the ones that are "good catches" still manage, como dice mi madre, " CAGARLA" because they dont know that certain comments are inappropriate, that they are offensive... Pariguayos. I am such a calm girl, yes a bug out and a joker and someone that likes to see everyone smile, even if I just met you... but once I burst, I burst. And I am so fkin annoyed and disgusted at the way some men act. Maybe if I hung out with whores that didn't have jobs, or a college degree, that type of behavior would be acceptable (the you know, "lets be pigs" behavior) but since I dont... its just an insult. Now a days you can't get too comfortable because that BAM! comes out of no where... it always does.

Pero na', como le dije a mi manita "you have to kiss many frogs before getting to your prince... and even he, wont be perfect," True.

Dig It.

friendship

I got to spend some time with some of my closest girlfriends this weekend and I thoroughly enjoyed myself. I find myself thanking God for the people he has set around me during the past year. So I wanted to say, for those of you who have a group or maybe one great friend that asks for your opinion, who cares about how your day went and shares with you the random little moments that happen in their life...who you can cry to, vent to about feeling ugly/fat/dumb/lonely, the ones you can take great trips with... he/she who will not judge you for making a mistake, or isn't afraid to laugh at your wrong pronunciations, and make a joke about your dancing in front of the mirror (haha)... say thank you! whether through the buying of flowers, or with a simple hug... yes, I'm a corny dorky geeky sweetheart on the low.

Ps. Celebrate yourself! don't wait for someone else to do it... & if you are enjoying yourself with someone (and I mean a guy or girl), E.N.J.O.Y. it; don't second doubt it ... don't criticize it... don't look for a glitch or something bad to stop making you feel happy... if its meant to end, someone up there will do it... leave it to the future, but stay in the present.



Dig it.



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