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Yesterday I was mad for -.2 seconds. And then I realized people take FB too seriously. Sometimes I wonder if real hobbies have become obsolete.. Hmm.
No time for Shenanigans!
Its Fak'in Saturday, and I'm feeling frisky.


Easy. Breezy.

Love you The Bebos! Best Ever.

Security....

Aja, so now its a crime to be friends with guys that have girlfriends... that's some bs. I kept wondering why on earth it was that pretty girls get crazy when their boyfriends get a wall post on facebook...why they make asses of themselves and send that message or friend request to the particular wall poster (which usually ends with an email sent by the other party to friends and friends making fun of the girlfriend and her foolishness). But it just hit me. Its not that these girls are insecure about the other female and the wall post, or the comment on the picture... its that the girlfriend has not been given the right amount of security to assure them that their relationship is going in the right direction, that it is in fact a solid companionship, and that the boyfriend is trust worthy enough that a simple something on FB or Myspace wont matter... and so this is where the root of all crazy girls begins (well some at least). Why do we as females need this security card from males? and even if we get it, is it really valid? Even when in love people still make mistakes and slip ups, hurting in a none intentional way their other half... and so, is security ever real? or is it something we pretend to give to each other in committed relationships to avoid the many arguments and unnecessary drama? I've never been intimidated by another female, but I have been insecure because of the laid back nature a man might take as his approach to "us". I've learned from those situations, and now the minute I feel like I'm second thinking whether or not I can randomly call him; or if I can't ask him to hang out because he might think I'm a feen as supposed to just being genuinely interested and enjoying his company--- its the minute I put the brakes on the "us" and go back to just me. At the risk of missing out on a great opportunity with a guy, I choose my sanity. I'm 23, no longer in h.s. with a college degree and a prospering future ahead of me, I refuse to make time for someone who makes me doubt the amount of comfort I can have in the "us" area... NEGATIVE. It can easily fall into an over analyzing pattern that frankly takes too much time and effort... Entonces, my advice is either talk about your insecurities or move forward with "you", eventually you will find an "us" that doesn't need the uttering of that word, because it will simply be felt when you're laying in bed at night... MisUnderstood <3>

Crazy.Sexy.Cool.

Amazing weekend... I was surrounded by my favorite people and some new individuals whom I never thought I would be spending time with, let alone enjoying myself... see why you can't be so limited and closed minded? Sometimes you have more in common than you think.

The summer has officially begun and I know this because me and the girls have already started the random hangouts, however unlike last summer this summer we will enjoy the entire day (summer 08 was filled with late nights)... working out (its ok if I threw up a little, I kept going)... bbqs (who doesn't like making fun of little kids falling off of bikes?)... game of kings (pls take the little man off the mouth piece of ur drink before he drowns)...

My four day weekend ended with an impromptu bbq which was great, and some much needed ummmmm friendlyness? haha. Lets just say I went to sleep smiling, because it doesn't take much to make me happy but only certain ppl can give me that x factor to do so.

Too many highlights... to share.

<3 Fantastic.

Seriously, Thursdays were not made for ppl who work Fridays...

Thursday! Oh the random events of life...

I got two tickets to see Chicago the musical for free (yey hard work pays off (thanks Rachel)), I was going to take my mother but! last minute she didn't feel so well so I took my best friend the Bebo! (lol sounds like a movie, no?)

The show was simply amazing, funny and extremely entertaining, I loved! the dancing---some of the splits off the walls and on top of guys made you go hmm (insert thought bubble here) hehe. Sofia Vergara (playing mama morton) was great! I underestimated her talent, she sang and acted well, very charismatic and it didn't hurt she is easy on the eyes---more like gorgeous...

After a sis encouraged me to come out to this party at BLVD I seduced Abel to join (trust me you can't say no to these freckles!)... oh boy.

Highlights!

-Girls dressing like they came from the beach, I think I was too dressed up with a short freakum dress and heels... imagine that. Girls, try a little wtf.

-A guy was wearing a blazer, a tight fitted and a book bag---imagine this person sliding around the dance floor bumping his chest (shout out to Omar someone is copying your moves hahahah)... this was what started the jokes of the night... I think he was going to stomp the yard.

-A guy with braids blocking me for no reason, I kindly told him "escuseeeee miii sean-a-paul"

-Another guy asking me to dance salsa...and he didn't know how, I said no thank you. Its not that I'm rude its that if you don't know how to dance something learn at home and then try! Goodness. Salsa is not the genre to fake the funk at, its not 1-2-3 back, or shake hips to the right/left... My kids will learn salsa before anything else.

-Me crawling to get my sweater (i was wearing a leopard dress, so it was fun to see a group of ppl staring)

-The white girl on the stage dancing... I hope someone somewhere recorded it.

After seeing that there was no hope of any real dancing (and the lack of eye candy---except for one, lets leave it at that...) we trooped it home... Abel made my night by saying the following at 323 am:

Me: Thomas Jefferson invented the telephone?!

Abel: nah, that was Con Edison

(paused and laughter burst like a bag of skittles a child tried to open).... classic!

I got harassed by a hideous huge man, ugh... why? Men seriously stop. He tried to speak to me, i moved from my seat and he followed, even though i had my head phones. I swear he could have smashed my head with one of his disgusting massive hands... no more going home dolo for me! I'll be taking the black book with me, or better yet Dream Team!

*Thanks for calling and making sure I got home ok, I REALLY appreciate it*

I rolled out of bed with 2 hours of sleep, and here I am... no one but maybe 10 people in the whole department... listening to the Dirty Dancing sound track... wondering if I can make it through the next 2 hours... but, with the help of Dream Team (and soon to be hehe) + a ridiculous message from someone telling me I'm not diddy so I should get back to them when they text me (seriously I AM BUSY and if I don't hit you back up, then go read my blog about SHES JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU---I hate being mean, I really do, but if you push my buttons youre gonna see a side you won't like)+lemonade= 3 DAY WEEKEND... lets see what happens.

Supa dupa wired---Fan-Freakin-Tastic

Ehy Ehy ...

Amazing Tuesday night... yes, amazing. Hit up a bar with a recent graduate (congrats!again!), enjoyed the streets of Soho, checked out the Tommy Hilfiger & Paper Magazine event (loved the gay men making fun of the bujie people), ended it at some random bar and watched (attempted to) the Lakers game... wonder how that ended...

Random Wed!
--- I was at Duane Reade and people buy the weirdest most embarrassing things, some lady walked in with a mask... I'm starting to not like this trend, its scaring me.
---Is it bad to ask, wth are you looking @?! when people are looking @ me up and down? seriously, I get it my hair is pretty wild without gel... hehe
---My cousin explaining to me that he could lose the little bit of fat he has in his stomach tonight by wrapping a " FOOD MARKET BAG" lmao that right there made my night... he is a trip.

Its my mothers bday today! She was super happy when we surprised her with gifts, a cake, and food... she even got roses (mad gassed!) haha... but it was real sweet to see her smiling. She may drive me crazy but I'm thankful for having her around, not many are that lucky... fathers day's is coming up idk what to give her, hmmm a tie? haha. I guess I get my joy of being surprised from her, because she was very excited.

Speaking to my soon to be 18 year old cousin about life and relationships was dope. Reminded me of where I was at when I was his age, I told him to always be honest to a female it will be less bad karma for him.. knowing that I can possibly influence one guy to be less of an asshole makes me HAPPY. He then when on to give me some guy advice, get it! MY LITTLE COUSIN GIVING ME ADVICE.. love it, its nice to have a guy around (Abel ju know ju the best though).

I'm learning to regroup with my family, baby steps... baby steps.

Listening to :Resurrection by common (my cus thinks hes putting me on lol)

Fan-Tastic

Stories...for days...

The Bellos event went amazingly... The Edison Ballroom was decorated extremely elegant and I'm sure everyone's eyes appreciated it...The open bar had everyone in a great mood, and it made the job easier to deal with happy individuals. I got to see Eva Longoria, whom looked gorgeous (that's as simple as I can put it), and of course William Levy (google him if you don't know who he is, just prepare to drool). Cucu Diamantes (member of Yerba Buena) was dope on stage, and although her outfit was risque she pulled it off quite well (I met her stylist and he was fabulous...)

Working the door was fun! Some people have no shame... that is all I will say... (look for more in the book I'll write set to be released sometime before I'm 30 haha). The Dj was on point, and yet not everyone was dancing--- this is a trend I am starting to see, boooo people.

Thursday I was exhausted! from the night before, but I got an invite I couldn't turn down. So I sucked it up and...

I was like damn I am so TIRED I can’t go out tonight. I won’t make it to work tomorrow (literally knocked out so hard on the train home I almost missed my stop). So then I’m like fak it, why wouldn’t I go out and see what happens… So I throw on my ripped jeans (which btw I just saw that they are the trend for the summer, I love doing style without knowing) and my black platforms brown jacket and black clutch… shazam! Lets do this.

I meet up with friends and head over to S.O.B.'s downtown and tada... I get to see the following:
John Legend, his lil bro- Anthony Vaughn (who is coming out now he is BANGING like John legend just taller younger and with an amazing body, they sound the same though so he needs to switch it up), Estelle, Rick Ross, and Ryan Leslie. I thoroughly enjoyed John Legend, he is a great act on stage... My night ended @ the Tmobile Sidekick party... The best part of that was having Danny Masterson (Hyde from That 70's show) Dj the whole night... He had some good old school hip hop/rap/RnB mixing. Who would have thought? hmm... oh the hidden talents of people.

By Friday I was too tired to go out (Shout out to Yani love juice, Jmo hope you enjoyed the Burg and the bars, Josie! I was so tired I forgot wout the shinding...I <3) I opted for staying in with my better half (Bebo) ordered some pizza (fat kid alert) and watched Chapelle Season 1 (Bonjubanta!)...Loved EVERY second of it... specially his couch, is like heaven.
See my friends, one night can be crazy (or two) and then others could be as equally as fun on a couch with the people you love.


I'm not trying to be a wannabe, because I'm gonnabe...
Gratefully so.. MsUnderstood.

Robin Thicke is running circles through my mind... replay!

Who raised me??

I just asked myself that question when I heard my mom discussing with my aunt that people of the same sex should not marry. That has got to be the most ignorant thing I've heard out of my mothers mouth. I told her that was ridiculous that everyone should be with who they want to be with. Honestly sometimes I wonder if I was randomly dropped off in the front of a street somewhere and she just found me. I told her hopefully I have a daughter and she's lesbian, I would love to see what she does then. Cono pero es verdad. I'm sorry, but heated does not begin to describe how I feel.
Matter fact, I'll bring a girl home. See what she does then. Fkin ridiculous. Next thing you know she wants me to read the bible and go to church...

You know what I need? My own place... eso viene. Motivation just kicked into high gear.

----Yari----

Side Note: The day after I woke up and spoke to her about the situation, as the comments mentioned it is right for all of us to have our opinions... however sometimes some things are better left un-discussed... ya'dig.

DayDreaming...

Daydream, I fell asleep beneath the flowers, for a couple of hours... on a beautiful day.

Spring fever/Summer heat must be hitting me hard core...

If this picture doesn't scream... Idk what will.

Como dijo Yuvi, Summer hurry the fak up already!

Fan-Tastic

From my heart to yours....

My birthday week was dope. That's all I can say. I thought Monday was enough of a surprise but it def didn't end there...

Friday night my friends surprised me again! I thought it was just my best friend and I going to a comedy show and when I get there I see my Mj, Bebo & Lari dari... I was so happy. I love good surprises! Its like a power boost in your jamba juice. Lucky Cheng's is the place and it was WILD. Let me give you some highlights....
---Men in women's clothes
---Me getting on stage with 7 other women and faking an... yes, I know, I do it all. I am that chick. Classy but Sassy lol... All in good fun..........and for a free drink
---Many laughs from the jokes by the presenter
---Me getting a lap dance on stage by the Asian sensation (I learned I can do a split upside down)
---My friends aka Fanny Pack lol singing Spice girls on stage for me (c'mon CLASSIC)

How dope is that? Loved every second of it... My bday bash was Sat.... This did not go as planned. But life happens and you can't solve it all by crying (even if I wanted to) so I made the best of it, drank the amazing sangria Lari made (kudos boo) and danced with everyone in the room..... Battled it out with the guys, haha yall got served lol Luz did a freeze on the floor and I did the butterfly... get it! Great people make great times happen... I even got one of the guys to sing me happy bday (he has a nice sweet voice) and I ended the night by taking some henny shots ( I don't do dark liquor but... thanks to Mr.Fort, I did the do)....


Happy mommy day! I got to hang out with some of the women who raised me and I appreciate them so much more now... even though they are extremely loud and a little off the wall (why are Dominican women so loud? dang man)... But still they are always laughing and make the best of what they got--- I guess I get it from my momma. Def ended great, having a surprise visit from a cutie pie who brought me some delish food ... It was just a great great weekend.... Week... 23 started well.... lets hope for the rest to be the same.

Shout out to everyone who came out Sat. I appreciate it very very much (eternally grateful might sound crazy, but it is the truth).

Gracias whoever is up there who has a thing for me and is looking out.
**Totally in love with Laura Izabor "Mmmm"**

La Creme de la Creme...

Random things happen and when bigger events later occur you start to think that if it wasn't for that one random something moments, months, years ago... this wouldn't of came about.

I arrived at the Waldorf Astoria in style. I am in my black dress and stiletto heels with my hair done. And this nice man holds my hand to help me out of my seat. My ride? A bicycle cab. As I waited outside my building right by Rockefeller Center and no yellow cabs would stop for me I opted for the ultimate lets go green and save the ozone mode of transportation, of course I got some looks and some teasing from my good friend Cracky (E.P)... but as he said, "Only you would do such a thing"... actually, only to me would such a thing happen.

Bloomberg, and Patterson spoke (yes that would be the Mayor of NY and the Governor)... nice speeches, and Patterson was particularly charismatic, almost dorky but I loved his simpleness. I stood next to Lin Manuel (as in award winning writer of In the Heights) and yes this man is humble, he was wearing loafers... yea. Eso mismo.
I sat in a table full of accomplished women, and although at first I was intimidated (a strange feeling for me) I broke out of my shell with the help of my friend... I got to speak and share thoughts with one of the founders of the Puerto Rican Day Parade (amazing, hopefully I hit the lotto and she becomes my mentor), another woman who was at the top of the league (literally, she was head of communications for the MLB) and another who not only founded her own charter school in the Bronx where children learn through the arts but who also established the foundation for the 100 most influential Latina women in America (give me until 30 I'll be on that list)...Me and E.P. even took a picture with the President of the Hispanic Federation (this was their Annual Gala).

I took the F home... and as I walked the long tunnel to my side of the street (and saw a HUGE rat run past me) I realized more than ever that I want more than what I have now. That when I'm 30 I want to sit at the Gala and have young Latinos introduce themselves to me, and hopefully I'll have a story to share of when I was 23 and randomly got invited to this event where I sat in a table full of accomplished women....


Its not about good things or bad things happening... its about life happening. That's what happens to me. LIFE.

And How does it feel to be 23?

......... Idk yet, but if its based on feelings, then it feels pretty damn good.

I woke up to phone calls and text messages from friends saying, singing, rapping happy bday today. 23 years ago at 130 pm I came into this physical world, only God knows where I'll end up, but I am thankful for the path I have been walking on.

Its funny because when you're young you only think of the gifts and the cake you get to have, and here I stand (or rather sit) on my 23rd bday and the only thing I wanted was to spend time with the people I love. The ones who make me smile, and the ones that know the as the down to earth type of girl that I am, chips and dip with gossip girl on and a few anecdotes in between commercials would make me happy.

I grew up moving around a lot (including from DR to Venezuela, from Venezuela to NYC, from NYC to Seattle, and then back here), and so it wasn't until H.S. that I got to make friends that I could keep. Although I didn't keep them all (life happens) I did keep the good ones, and after college and thanks to pledging the best org (SIA wins Org of the year in NALFO toot toot) I got to meet the most amazing, fantastic, fabulous, incredible, women in the world. Yes, the WORLD.

As I sit here and write (and cry like a corn ball), I am so thankful, so blessed that I have people who would go out of their way for me. Not many people can say that. To truly have a support group I can call at any time, for any reason is out of this world. Even Jmo who is in Costa Rica sent me a card ( i love ju boo, even if ur miles away)... wow.

I thought of what I have accomplished since 22 and I am proud of myself, there is still tons left to do... and I will get there. I thought of all the bad choices I made and the people who left a small mark in my soul (good or bad) and I am simply thankful because those choices, those people, those moments, will make 23 so much better.

Like Maya Angelou said "I've Learned That People Will Forget What You Said, People Will Forget What You Did, but People Will Never Forget How You Made Them Feel"---- And Diosito, it feels good to be so loved.

To many more bdays I hope to share. Happy like a kid doing cartwheels on the beach.

Y.E.M.