luck...

I don't know if luck is real but I sure feel blessed.

On another note: why create a storm when its sunny? The rain will fall when the clouds get tired of holding back.

<3

Joyful Joyful

I'm super ...errr... I just got nostalgic watching ABDC (lmao insert clip of lil mam here)... I Love dancing, I can't wait for Fame the remake to come out ( I know errr again)...

I found myself in the middle of a political/social economic fueled conversation and I barely had anything to offer... that wasn't a great feeling... I guess after college I've disconnected myself as much as possible from the current event news, I've blocked off what I learned about Marxism, Communism, Socialism... then again I wasn't a PoliSci major==> BUT that is not an excuse to not have much to contribute to a conversation... and so now I will make it a point to read publications from around the globe, not just the US bc we all know how skewed that can be... but most of all I would like to read some books on politics and the social economic atmosphere that we and other countries live under... Any suggestions are greatly appreciated.

Hmmm...

Men who have the syndrome known as "mamitis" scare me... so if you are aware of this in your life nip it... the pontential relationships that you are dead-in bc of this syndrome are....(errr again)

I am chuckling on the inside at all the guys from my past that didn't last who are trying to make a comeback but will go no where fast...chuckle...chuckle...

I can't wait for the fall... and maybe fall in love... with life- All Over Again.

<3>

Dare to Dream...

Last night we (Dream Team) had our first fundraising event @ ViBe lounge in Washington Heights. I knew it would be hot once I left my office, but I had no idea it would be scorching-ly so. It took every sensible cell in me not to jump into one of the six open fire hydrants I saw on my way to the lounge... but I knew the cold air from the AC would make the trip worth while--- and lo and behold, the AC was not working ( I panicked but then I let it go)--- the AC was fixed as the night went on...

The event was a success! We had an amazing turn out and I was smiling from ear to ear the whole night. I was surprised to see some of the people that came out and actually stayed the whole evening-- it was great! The positive energy was felt from every corner and it was truly appreciated...

Shout out to: Dream Team, Hype Solutions, Nevaeh Jeans, SFGD, TOMA, Vodka, Underground Latino, Vibe Lounge, Wildboy Clothing, Mangu AllStars, TSE, Delmonte & Co., My biffs:Daze&Bebo,Omar&Serg,Paula,Gamma Gamma of SIA, Stroll Team of SIA, Cussies... ok! <3>

Happy... simply said.

Loving MiGente...

There's nothing like a weekend with your girls to refresh your memory of who you were then, who you are now, and where you are going to be in the future. A little bit of grown women dust is all you need to keep you grounded & focused (whether they show you blatantly or unknowingly through their good & bad decisions...)

I am Dominican & Spanish but I was raised como una Dominicana... except not so much since I spent my younger years in Venezuela (Margarita, I still dream of you) by a mother who has a very peculiar way of doing things... hehe.
I wasn't raised in any specific religion (nope, I never did my first comunion)
I learned to make arepas before I learned to make mangu de platanos
I would rather salsa any day over merengue
and although Dominican men are top five in the "who has the best sense of humor" category, I would rather not date them (ya yo veo, spitting in the air and it landing in my...)

But! That does not change the fact that I am Dominican & that I love my culture & most of all
MiGente!
At the Dominican festival this Sunday, I found myself amongst massive crowds of people singing bachatas & merengues with actual bands on the corners of the never sleeping Washington Heights. It was simply amazing. I danced with random strangers, spoke to a gramma eating arroz con abichuela outside her window-sill, and waved my flag around as I walked from 191 to 163rd. I finished my night con un chimi (don't judge I was close to starving)...

The point is, even if you're not from a certain place it doesn't mean that you don't belong to it... Just because my mother listened to Rocio Durcal instead of Las Chicas del Can does not mean that I am not Dominican... por que sin duda--- I can def throw the ill Chancletazo across a room.

<3>

And so I shed...

It must be the full moon that has me feeling like this... or maybe having Maxwell serenading me on the F train got me thinking... but then again after seeing some of the most inspiring art I've seen in a while who wouldn't feel the way I'm feeling...

I stood outside staring @ the moon, ugh these inner conflicts... my girl-friend sent me an article about it, something about shedding... and lately I've been feeling exposed. I know I am quick to say my piece and speak my mind, but when it comes to my emotions, that is a different story. A story that often has no happy ending.

Showers are the quickest way to heal the soul... so I scrubbed. And then I thought go write, or rather shed it off. So here I go over exposing myself... it might not make sense (I'm writing off of this high) to you, and I'm sure when I finish typing it wont make much sense to me either--- and this is why I call myself MisUnderstood.

Sometimes I get it sometimes I don't...these thoughts...these thoughts...

I said in my previous blog I'm romantically happy... haven't said or felt that in almost two years...but the truth is I'm anxious & scared. Lo que pasa es que yo me entrego cuando me gusta un chamo...un chico...un hombre... its like word vomit--- I can't help but express my care/like... and trust me, I get hurt plenty. And so I am grasping on to the logical side that has occupied my emotions. Its not that I'm falling in love (ha) its that the slightest notice of liking sets all my skeptical censors off...peeepeppepeeeeepp... I want to shed this "anxiety" and teach myself to soak it in as opposed to blocking it off... I want to shed away the closure I never got from someone who impacted the way I see relationships and men as a whole---I know I will never get closure, not from him, not even if I get the gift back... if the gift were returned it would lose its value ...have you ever given someone something and the gift took a little piece of you with it?...that's how I feel---I want to shed that feeling...I'm upset @ myself for having a million and one things I wish to do and yet I have no idea where to start or where to go to do them. Everyday I wake up with a new idea---I want to be a drummer, I want to start this gosh darn book which I have over 15 chapters for, I would love to pick up my phone and call my dad and say...---I'm mad @ myself for feeling a little bit less of a success when I'm around other people who have found their purpose/are passionate about their field---God knows these people have insecurities too---I want to shed this internal "anger" and live life right now right here...

::exhale::inhale::
Shed away...I say shed it all away.

Como una Estrella Fugaz

(Art By Demostina: www.demostina.com)

Flash... that was me

So I'm super MIA from my Blog! I should get kicked for that. Sorry world... not that anyone reads this... or do you?? Hmmmmmmmm....................(ponders)

A lot going on! Work is busy-- that's a good thing, if you're not busy you're most likely bored and I don't know about you, but bored is not something I like to be... Entonces, I'm trying to make sense of the melting pot that is my life... I am dipping my toes in freelancing (just translated something for Frankie Negron--- English to Spanish is NOT as easy as you might think). Cross your fingers for me, I am venturing into new waters. I miss writing, like really writing--- as in sitting down undisturbed with my laptop and just letting my crazy thoughts onto a saved hard rive! But why not just write you ask?! Well, I cant find the charger to my laptop :( ahhhhhhh... thats me <--- AHHH.

I am also extremely excited and happy to say that my friends and I are doing an after work fundraiser for a cause that is close to our hearts--- or rather for a person close to it--- details to follow! But there is much to do with a very small window of time to do it in... still it is WONDERFUL to help... (insert halo here)

I went to the NY Latino Film Festival and LOVED IT, I hope you all went to support the fellow artist that are trying to make moves for themselves... the energy in the room is crazy when you're surrounded by creative minds... ahh...

I went bowling! I sucked... until the last game and then! ppl were not really trying (boohoo)... I know i sound like a million thoughts at once, but thats my melting pot for you!

I am romantically happy. AHH. haha... sorry for all the screaming, but its good screaming--- its a scream for hope, for guidance, for positive vibes and what the future which for yesterday is today- will hold... A toast to my Odyssey.

• Look out for Dream Teams Fundraiser!


• If you're free tomorrow 6-8 pm @ Plum Rest. on 168 and Broadway, Local Artist! Come support!

Holding on to the rails gets old, I'm ready to fall...fall...fall

FanStar