Bow Chika Bow Wow

And so my first day went pretty swell! I met a lot of people and got to fix my desk... =) lets see how the rest of the week goes... So many things to take in. I want to absorb it all!

Okay I'm going to vent real quick, I absolutely hate when people are rude on a general note. But I hate it even MORE when people are rude over emails. So I would like to give a shout out to someone from my org who loves to be a natzi and use a rude tone of voice through emails, but when you bring it up she says that she didn't say it that way. Listen, I studied Communications, I think I know when someone is being rude and sarcastic. Ahhhh!

Yes. On. Blast. Even if you dont like someone, you can always remain professional.

Nadie le trae lluvia a mi carnaval.

FanDizzie.

here we go...

I am freaking out! Tomorrow is my first day of work, and well I am just getting the ultimate butterflies... (ahh!). For the past 3 months I've been dealing with 5 year olds and now I will be with people who have been working for this magazine for years... grrr... its okay! Because all I need to do is project confidence... and hopefully google is near me incase I don't know some term... Alright! This is yet another learning experience.

Every time something new and exciting happens to me the first thing that comes to my mind is...
I get to tell my kids and grandkids about this one day.

Thats what gets me through anything (insert thought of me hoola-hoopin on 44th street to win a trip to LA). So I guess what I'm trying to say is that, although I am super scared I am hoping for the best and if you find yourself in a similar situation... well I send you positive energy through this blog...

Saying adios to my kids was so hard... I almost cried! I'm such a sap! haha. But I defitnetly want to do something in not for profit in the future (life is full of twists and turns!).

Random story ! So I went to this lounge called Stay lounge (244 E Houston) and this is what happened: my girl gets me a shot to celebrate and I needed a chaser (yes yes light weight in the house) and I go to buy a corona at the bar. The bartender gives me a 20 in return that looked fake. I tell her is this real? she says yes. I tell her it looks fake... she says "would I take a fake bill from someone"--well, Becky I don't know you so maybe you would. She refuses to change my bill. Next day I go to pay for something, and the manager at the store pulls me aside to explain to me that the 20 was indeed fake. Ain't that some Sugar Honey Ice Tea ... Don't worry the problem was fixed. However please refrain from going to the above address not to mention the whole scene was wack. Ahh life.

okay! Off to bed... Vamos a ver.

Had. To. Share.

So I'm in bed in the most horrid pjs my hair messy my crooked glasses on, and this commercial comes on... I almost drooled... Make over? Yup. Here I come. Watch this foreal. Its Banonckers.

hehe.

Straight Butta!

FanTastic!

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Music......

Yo the MTA is OUT OF CONTROL... the hikes the service cuts... these are wild things. How about we cut some of the NYPD out of the equation like the one I saw texting today in the middle of Harlem... yeah shout out to Precinct 32. I love when I walk by and 5 of you grill me... let me go run and hide. Estan Pasados!!

If I could run to work in the morning I would so do it, but I wouldn't get to my location until maybe tomorrow... damn it! (no I'm not angry lol).

Okay so is it bad if the girl is the one "kicking" it to the guy? I don't mean running game, I mean being forward about being interested and trying to make things happen? Is this intimidating?


Music!! Today was so amazing outside, and I couldn't stop listening to the following songs:

- Laura Izibor- carousel
-Natasha Bedingfield- soulmate
-Santigold- LES Artiste
-Ciara-Love and sex and magic


Dig it!!!!

yea...that just happened (2)

Seriously, don't talk about your ex to a new person. Its really annoying.

I'm interviewing all my past love interests (boyfriends, someone I dated, a person I talked to)... research for my future libro (ahem). This should be interesting.

Fan-Bro

Good times...

I must say the best moments happen when you are surrounded by great friends. I went up to Albany this weekend with some of my sorors and it was just what I needed. On Friday I co-hosted a talent show held by FUERZA and I also performed along side my sisters. The hosting part was okay, I must say I wasn't the best at it... mainly because me and my co-host were not vibing off of each other... at least it was an experience. Plus the guys in the audience gave me a 10 hehe.

(waaa moment- my ankle is killing me... yey)

So many random things happened...
1. We were waiting to turn into the campus at around 11 pm and I turn to my right and what do I see? A truck flipped over to the side. We were the only car in sight... Crazy! The cops came right after. (and yes there was someone in there because we saw someone trying to open the door and it slammed back up).
2. On our way down to nyc there was almost at 10 car collision in the high way... we swerved to the right and then to the left... I wonder how it looked from the sky down. (crazy).

And then of course there were the moments of girls throwing themselves at guys, the extremely crowded house party, the bathroom scene (lights on!lights off!) and then unforgettable sleeping on a couch and table... yes yes, memorable weekend.

All I want is a bed.

Warning... angry post

What is up with men being such ass*oles about women's rears? Huh? Someone explain that to me.

No, I do not have a huge set of buns. Sorry world, Sorry men. Are you kidding me? Seriously?

As a Latina female who was not born in this country, I had some body image issue to always deal with growing up in NYC. When I was 13 I wanted to be shorter because I thought guys only wanted short girls, it took me a while to appreciate the fact that yes I was taller than all my girl friends and yes when I want reach for the cute shirt at the top of a wall I could.

Then when I was 18 and a freshman in college my girls encouraged me to try out for the annual modeling show, and guess what, the lady took my measurements and I wasn't skinny enough, I wasn't tall enough and ... is your hair really curly? (yes she asked that).

At 16 I wasn't thick enough, at 20 I wasn't skinny enough... And now at 22, I am neither. Now I hear your ass isn't big enough. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Excuse me. EARTH TO MEN: I would love for you all to walk around naked and then maybe us women can tell you: Oh your Johnny downtown isn't big/thick/skinny/long enough. How is that for a change? The damn scrutiny needs to stop. A guy actually told me, "You are Latina you're supposed to have a big ass", well Sir, not all of us are built like JLO or Vida Guerra. Some of us have other nice things, like legs, blossoms, hands, hair, eyes, eye lashes, stomach, knees, ankles... It is not all about the ass. SO GET OVER IT.

I can completely understand the fact that we all have standards *physically and emotionally* that need to be met, I am okay with that. But do me a favor, and I speak for myself, if you wish to date me and think it will happen don't expect my rear to grow immensely over night go talk to the shorty down the block. I will no longer feel less Latina, or less attractive because my ass doesn't stop traffic, I have other assets that make me a woman.

So men, if you're thing is green eyes don't bash the girl you're dating for having brown ones (you chose her as she chose you).

Wtf.

Ahhhh.

Fan.

Ehh...

I'm starting to get annoyed...

But there's some sort of a stigma that hangs over my head. Is it wrong to feel a certain way? Should I feel like a jerk for it?... Ah, decisions...decisions...

<3>

In a Daze

Fan-Diz

yey!

Its Friday! I am so happy... Dance practice has me hurting (but that's a good thing)....

I wish I was in love today... its just so gorgeous out, and this weekend is going to be beautiful as well... what does being in love have anything to do with it? Well all I know is that it would make this Friday 10 times better... doesn't love do that? or maybe I should stop listening to this Luis Fonsi song over and over (me doy por vencido)... Then again I am currently in love with life.

I must vent: What is up with guys wearing super tight jeans? This is a horrible trend and someone needs to stop it. Fitted jeans are great, but not TIGHT JEANS. Its uncomfortable to watch, and just think of your family jewels... tsk tsk men.

Fan-jizzi

Smile!

Mango-me Crazy!

I went to the Absolut Vodka Mango taste it party last night, and it was dope! After a long day with many stressful factors this was a nice way to end my Wednesday.

The people were either fabulous or ridiculously dressed, and the drinks were amazing! I suggest everyone go out there and get themselves a Mango flavored vodka... I def will (for Costa Rica of course).

Can I just share that I had to run from my job back to the Y to change... and I had to do my hair next to a sauna (literally there was a sauna next to the mirrors) and so every time I made it straight it went back to puffy... so I said oh! well! lets just work with this super volumized hair and pretend it looks great (confidence is everything guys).

But I got a few compliments and I def enjoyed myself. The jokes were off the wall (Mr. Fort haha) and the mango's were sweet! I had to take two for myself.
Ah.. La vida random


See!!
Fan-Star

My big news...

Hello world... since I can't scream it from the roof tops of NYC I'll write it on my blog for you all to read...

And so yesterday I wrote about how blessed I am and today I share the news that I have received an amazing opportunity to work for People en Espanol.... yes... the #1 Latino magazine in the U.S. I am really astounded by this... speechless. Yes Me, speechless. But most of all thankful. I hope that everyone else out there that wishes to do something that is important to them goes for it and doesn't give up... I've wanted to be in a magazine setting since I was 17---- that's 5 years trying and not getting anything... and I mean writing to editors who never wrote back, interviewing with other magazines who were extremely unprofessional and even randomly meeting an editor from Rolling Stone on my way back from LA (he sat next to me) and... well let me just end it there and say: If you have faith don't let it fall off your daily thoughts...

Crossing my fingers that all goes well.

Happy as a Bright Sunny Summer Day.

Fan Star

Song of the day: Robin Thicke Dreamworld .... it is dope! and it reminds me of the song Vienna...

Blessed

I am super blessed. I am simply eternally thankful to the people that God has introduced me to. I don't even know how else to put it. I happen to be at the right time at the right places, and I keep meeting the right people... with the positive energy and outlook on life that I continue to build on.

I am simply in awe of the amazing things that seem to be happening... self manifesting.

I have been given an amazing opportunity and God knows I cannot begin to thank her enough for allowing me to prove myself... big shout out to Carlos from Cali who really set me in the right path ( I owe you a hug a drink and a salsa dance).

On other news I am going to COSTA RICA in June with 9 of my girlfriends (jmo here we come)!! Super excited ... and thus begins my bigger motivation to really get in shape for the bikini season that will be revealed... NO FB IN CR!

So I went shopping for some pants with my friend and we go into forever 21 on 14 and its close to closing time... I go up to one of the guys that works there and I'm like hey where can i find a skirt or pants, he says upstairs... but its closed. So I'm like damn ok cool. He then goes on to say, if you want I'll sneak you upstairs... haha
My friend goes, well look at that. I'm like, what?! ... his answer: You are like the only person I know that people go out of there way for, and you don't even try you just smile and bam people are just attracted to your energy...

I never thought of that... but I must say for the most part I'm lucky like that... or I should say blessed.


Living in a Fantasy
Fan-dizzle

shout out to my girl crew for all the luv... you ladies are my rock.

Maybe

Maybe I will
Maybe I won't

Maybe you'll see
Maybe you don't

Maybe I'll wait
Maybe I might

Maybe you'll get to know me and give me a real chance.
Too many maybes.
But what will be, may-be.

Thats what I get...

For being so excited about having a day off... Whoever works with inner city children under the age of 12 know what I mean when I say that patience is truly an art that can only be mastered with maturity and meditation. Casi me pongo en una esquina y me saco los cabellos... ah... sigh... not today my friends, not today. So many people on the trains of NYC look like regular civilians and in actuality they are out of their minds... some are literally crazy. A Schizophrenic had a loud argument with himself today in english and in colombian spanish... bendito sea jesus, I felt so bad for him. And then the fear that he might spaz on me and grab me made me feel worse... Sometimes I wonder how life would have been if I would have been raised in Spain or in Venezuela... but as of right now I won't change my Obama. Not even for some milk and cookies. Con un cansancio. Fan'Star

Sour Patch! snow.

I didn't have to go into work today! Idk about you but sleeping is the best thing ever... ever. =)

So my horoscope was on point, I had a great time. I swear there is something about being away from the city for a couple of days that leaves you re-freshed and ready to jump start your week ... But this random snow storm was just amazing. Thank you sweet lord baby Jesus.

So a couple of things that came up this weekend...
1. You should always give someone a fair shot at getting to know them before writing them off as a jerk or w.e. your choice of word may be.
2. Men are a lot like women, even in their 30s, so ladies stop stressing yourselves they are not that hard to please and keep... seriously.
3. Romance happens randomly so be random!


I read this "hate" blog for Latino greeks. Very sad. I can joke around and say things here and there (I think we are all guilty of that) but to really be so disrespectful and not have the balls to own up to it is simply hypocritical. This is why I hang out with a select few. Disturbing to say the least.

-Fan Star