Fri-dizzie.

Its friday.

Its gorgeous out.

I feel great. Got my hur did, my nails my all... my soul is ready for a trip... Check out the horoscope... WEAPA.

Taurus April 20 - May 20

Weekend Update:
Feb 27, 2009

Weekend Update: You're very psychic on Friday. You can feel another's true thoughts and motives across a crowded room and are nearly impossible to fool. You don't brag about this or even discuss it. You just use your gift to make life easier. You're in a romantic, cuddly mood, making you even more impossible to resist than usual. Earthy, sexy, silky and adorable, you add new goners to your fan club on Friday and Saturday. Saturday evening is totally over the top in the fabulously luscious department. (You know others are smitten when they start comparing you to their favorite dessert - and they will on Saturday night.) Sunday is like a late bloomer that doesn't reveal its personality and potential until late in the game. From late afternoon on, you and your friends and family compete, support and entertain each other. There's an edge to most conversations - not unfriendly but decidedly competitive. Actually, most people adore this opinionated yet tolerant side of you.

I'll be back sunday with details...hmmm.

FanStar

Errrr... awkward

So... I was at the gym had a great work out... walked into the locker room and. TADA. Naked women EVERYWHERE. Not that I have a huge problem with that but then... THEN. I walked into the bathroom area and TADA! a lady was BENT OVER and I got to see all the cracks that connect to the infinite hole of life... SERIOUSLY?? no no wait.


SERIOUSLY?

oh lord sweet Jesus. and then.

I am washing my face in the sink, I look up and ... you've guessed it TADA! an older African American woman NAKED I mean her Vjay out and all trying to have a conversation with me...

I couldn't laugh, so I just nodded and walked to my locker.
Is it as awkward for guys??? I'm I crazy?


En paz... the girl that wants to walk around with a blind fold.

Fan'dizzie.

I suck at..

Picking up the phone! if I get one more complaint about how I suck at calling or picking up the phone I am going to jump (no not off the bridge are ya' kidding me?).

Hello world! when did I become this person who doesn't pick up the phone? I am paranoid that if I do people want to last hours on the phone... which takes away time from all the million other things I have to do. And then... I am this horrible friend who doesn't do her part to hold up the relationship. Cono, no se puede ganar. How do you balance it all? or do you start to minimize your friend list?! I don't want to give up on any friendships. But I sound selfish by saying, give me time to come back to this phone thing.

Fkin technology. Sometimes I wish I could hide under a paper hat (a rock is so cliche). I am a great friend and lately I seem to only upset my friends... maybe I need some time off being a friend and then I can rethink my whole approach to friendship... because I'm tired of feeling like an asshole and saying sorry when half the time I don't see I did anything wrong.

No more guilt on this end.

Hmmm...
I'm stuck on the whole Jazmin Sullivan album... ah!

OK I'll sleep on it.

Swish.

Fan'Star

I am..

In a super good mood.

If Monday was called something different, like your favorite candy (i.e. sour patch) would you dread it less?! I officially declare all Monday's Sour Patch.

Smile! you might just change someone elses' day.

Como una estrella Fugaz.

I've been running....

I've been running around like a mad woman since I came back from school... and today I finally had a down day and I didn't know what to do with myself. I didn't want to shop, I didn't want to eat... I didn't want to do anything, and yet at the same time I found it irritating not to have something to do... a party, a night out, a date. Is that odd? Or I'm I once again a normal Latina living in NYC. I am trying to make career moves, and all I can say is that I am really excited about the possibilities that seem to be arising. I guess sometimes I am at the right place at the right time. I went to a greek step show and I truly miss being on stage, dancing, performing... maybe I'll get back into the groove of things.. (oh man, who uses groove any more... estoy vieja). For the first time in months I am romantically BORED. Grr... ok ok not a big deal. The new street fighter game came out, and although I played it for 15 seconds I secretly loved it... dig it. Okay back to the lab... Con tranquilidad. Fan-jizzy

A whirlwind...

I keep getting sick... and then back to ok... wth! This is why I am a summer/fall person. The spring is tricky... but I can rock with it as well.

I had a wonderful Vday weekend..spent it with the people that make me happy... although some plans didn't go as they were supposed to I still had a wonderful time. I did learn again, that I shouldn't have expectations... ah! that is one lesson that continues to repeat itself...I can't help it, is it not human to do so?

I met De la Vega! I know I sound like a teen idol. But I really admire his art and the messages he gives to the community, he has such a great influence on his surroundings... well, when I first introduced myself he came off indifferent and rude. Which was a huge disapointment. And then he did a 390 and started a conversation with me... he ended up giving me a whole mess of his cartoon stickers for the kids I work with (he sells them for $3 bucks each)... and he gave my home girl a free shirt ($40) so, as you can see he isn't a jerk. See sometimes first impressions are the wrong impressions. Entonces! go to his shop! and get some cool stuff. I def plan to go back.

I'm starting to wonder when I'll be swept off my feet... or atleast elevated to another dimension.

FanStar

Omega man...

After a long day of work and a great work out I took the local B train to head on home... I had on letters and this random older mail man goes to me "Oh a sorority girl" and I smiled and kept playing a game with my phone. He sits next to me and says I'm in a Frat. Lifts up his hand and shows me his graduation ring.

I say, you're a Q?! and he goes yea (laughs) I am an Omega man. ---side note, I love meeting older greeks so I immediately turn my body towards him to start a conversation. I told him I used to date an Omega man but then dated an Alpha... he laughs. I said, is there something wrong with that? He goes... "Well, no, but I'm sure you will both fight over the mirror" hahah... A diss for all you Alphas out there.

He started telling me about his Frat days, and that the reason he chose to be an Omega man was because they were the only ones who didn't look down on him (he was poor and only went to college through ROTC). He also expressed that African American Frats and Sorors are anti black bc you basically have to be an elite black to join... but that's not the case with Omega.

Anywho, I didn't get to talk to him much bc his stop came... but that was awesome. He crossed in 63' down south..
Us latino greeks have a LONG WAY to go...

Living. Learning. Loving.

Fanshizzle.

**By the Way, don't you hate it when someone is a follower? Its sad... just sad..**

Thoughts upon thoughts...

I snapped at my mother... and now I feel like a jerk... Jeez I feel like I have one foot on the island and the other on this island...

Learning to live is not the same as learning to cope... ah hope.


Fan.

(how come cops break all the rules? I saw one driving cutting a red light as he spoke on his cell phone. This is some bullsht.)

fizzle........

I officially feel like a grown a$$ person... why you ask?!.... its 10:48 pm and I am still at work... OH YEA.

Fun

Times

Ya'

Dig?

But on the bright side, a lot of work has gotten done and that makes me smile... no? just me? jeje.

Talk about sucking it up and missing some hours of sleep. This weekend I was a walking zombie and I must admit I got really cranky... yes, gasp, I am one of those people who will get real (como se dice) Bitchy, if I'm running on 2 hours of sleep for 2 days... But like I said I sucked it up... sort of how I'm doing right now. It is nights like this that make me think that maybe I should be like a guy and have the side dish friend who has an apartment and who I can call at ummm 10:48 pm and say something like, "Yo, bro, ummm... can I crash on your bed? or umm the couch will do too.." ha. But! since I am not one of those (como se dice) hoochie woochies, I just pick up the phone and call my MJ and say something like, "Yo, bro, ummm... can I crash on your bed?" (seriously, thats what I said)... Thank goodness for sisters that live in all boroughs... TDTD.

I saw two movies this weekend that go so well with this theme of Valentines day... Hes just not that into you, and What love is... So the first one I'm sure you heard of, or saw plastered on the side of a bus as you walked to work (unless you drive, which in that case I already hate you). First off, to all the Scarletts out there shame on you. Ah this movie made me go through so many emotions...

Cheating, it is not something I tolerate. And I don't understand how people do it to each other, that's horrible... shame on you... Karma. thats all I gotta say.

It reminded me how hard it is to date and how nerve wrecking it is to put yourself out there only to get treated like crap. You know how many times I allowed guys to be assholes to me? good thing I grew out of that stage, with the exception of some recent glitches... which I cleared out of my system... Ahy no, mejor sola que mal acompanada.

The second movie spoke about the 11th man theory... haha I loved this one. So this is how the theory goes: 10 men are in a room going wild over one girl, one is buying her drinks the other is lighting her cig etc. The 11th man comes in, says hey, and turns his back to her... he pays her no mind. Which guy do you think she wants?? And so you see, it is of human nature to want what you can't have... the more you push away the more you are desired.

Watch both movies, the second gives the romantic issues from a group of mens points of views... dig it. Who said that guys don't talk about girls and their emotions?! ... if a man doesn't, thats a clear call for INSECURITY... ah, someday I'll meet a real man... or not... or maybe I already did and I just need to give him a real chance... the possibilities are endless... but in this moment in time, love is over rated.

Fav quotes:

When the need to make the person you love happy exceeds your own... thats when you know you are in love.

The best way to get over someone is to get under someone

Fan-dizzle....

Re-try...

I'm not big on second chances... but! I went and had some Sushi tonight! Thank ju Mr. future major leagues for taking me on an original dinner shingding! The first time I had sushi I ended up with a near hospital experience... i wont get into details.

Continuing with my challenge yourself theme! I will try different foods... or in this case, re try.

Sharing:
Sometimes the way we see people before we really know them is completely opposite of when we do... in my case I'm noticing that some people should have never been put so high on my exclusive pedestal... Oh the madness.

Simply blessed. No longer stressed...

Feelin' the burn...

I have been going to the gym lately, trying to get out of my lazy rut! I have a weight goal and I plan to obtain it... its not just about looks but also about health. I've become more conscious of the food I consume and what it may do to my body. Besides when you are happy with yourself you exude confidence... and confidence is key.

Random stuff :

I saw a special on the history channel about the possibility that some day people may be able to space dive. As in go into outer space jump off and re enter earth... Okay. Listen. I am all for adventures and new experiences, but this is something I will definitely say NAY to. Seriously? No no. I'll pass.

I read in the newspaper that the US is ranked 150 on the global happy scale... Dang... If I ranked myself I say I would be on the 1-5 range... gotta keep that smile wide.

I turn 23 this year... that just came into my head when i woke up this morning... I can't believe I am going to be 23. I remember when I was 16 and discovered that there was such a thing as contacts and a cell phone (I had a beeper! code 44)

I guess I am appreciating life a little more these days, specially the friends that do really nice things...

Shout out to Yuvi <3 class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">hasta pobre como yo y todavia paying it forward.

Okay back to work... check it one two!

LETS GO STEELERS...

The Steelers won! woot woot (insert happy dance)

I am not a football fan, but I was actually looking forward to this Superbowl... and I was cheering for the steelers all the way, mainly because of my boo #43 Troy Polamalu. Ah yes I can appreciate how exotic he looks and his long hair... haha. Anywho, I thoroughly enjoyed how great both teams played... the crazy way that guys get when there is a fumble, a touch down, or a pass missed... Maybe next year I'll paint my face and wear a jersey haha... just maybe.

I almost got hit by a cab and instead of moving out of the way I froze. In the middle of the street. I thought okay, here it comes lets hope the soup and mashed potatoes in the hospital are not cold... but then my friend, as a true prince haha, grabbed me and put me out of the way... I hugged him for a while...

See. One minute you're here and the next... you're not.

Smile.
Vive.

FanStar